Life's a Laugh
You just have to
bend the humor
or be pliable by it

I think it's fine. You took everything away from my life any way

breathless faustro

 dear WOKE people
you say love is in your hearts
but all you do is say I'm the enemy
and talk negative bad things.
And you don't even know me
but you're sure as hell eager to censore me,
bad mouth me, and think you know what is in
my history and in my heart and in my mind.

That turns me absolutely absolvent to sympathy or empathy
when much of my every day
is dealing with, containing, battling
surviving itself.
To have an added responsibility of eternal allibi
and also taxpayer
yet somehow being powerful and almighty enough
as world sufferment causer, establishes me to care nonseo at all.

I always take the ways and teachings of what elders taught me. They may be elders before time itself,
and sometimes,
elders as my grandparents.
My grandparents who your liable yellings and downtalk tell me were horrible or wicked people.
And yet my great grandparents escaped from cruel treatments as children in an orphanage. And they were native and also I have much American in my bloodline and even Spanish, and so much of what I eagerly looked back at and found myself intrigue to learn.
Which is beside the point. My grandparents were "Grand" and wonderful people. You call every thing that moves a colonialist. You have painted and branded and censored and attacked so many you do not know, who WOULD be on your self, so heartlessly and with an inner scorn aimed at more locations than ought.
You say my side or opinion or heart does not matter.
That is well known now and it changes my directive, and over the last near decade, decided a lot of who I am and where my directive lays.

I just want all of those people today who are so loud and heartless to know that I, and many like myself, will never take them seriously in my lives again, this politicized blind justice. Also I will always agree with an older heritage of wisdom or the seeking and pursuit of wisdom,action, and when to hold fire or to expel heat.
This should be familiar by the Judge of content of Character. Any patient thinking and turning within would arrive that the content of character is not judged today.

Yet I have to at this moment return to more of life's dealings and difficult responsibilities. There will not be for one moment any forgetting of some of the things this politicized movement had labelled me as or some of the missed opportunities arts-wise and media wise based on this hatred and collective insanity.
Of course with prowess and laughter that kind of statement will immediately be mocked. Because with group think comes broad generalization and the ability for mental bullying and jackal like behavior to be performed. No matter "what!" kind of group. See, people become the very things they began out to cease. But they never too often see it in their very mirror.

I will not come to a religious scapegoat yet feel Nature, Animals, and Magic of a certain type is my Ally. To me it is healing. But today I see the unhealed or internally unwell going out speaking of themselves as "Magicians!" and "Occult!" and so on. They seem like the damaged who wield retribution unto those they project as having caused their internal disorder.
I say: Daily! Work on body, mind, and soul.
Taking that serious to extreme degrees I never could have peered to see how much of an outlier that makes one's self. But oh well. I am myself, I know my value for intrigue into beautiful nature, and attempts to discover and uncover my own misbalances and serve to point them out and correct them.

Yet what I am alluded to be, and what my family or past generations are alluded to be, is all sickening to me as by accusation. Nobody can know the Heart of another person. And when their prospects (of Heart) are put into jeopardy, or socially attacked, that is scorn that lives with them forever.

Even with nobody on my side, deep within I both at once seek the light and am a creation of that light.
Somehow this is upsetting because them I can no longer serve as your living and vital alibi.

I love Folklore; My Influences; the Poets, and live unopolegtically.
I have dealt with enough, and if you want me to deal with you, too! Then come at me. If you support a journeyer into the mind's fields of allure or someone who wishes to step out of all these frames sof bullshit and coerced mass manipulation,
If you celebrate memories of what is love growing up by grandparent's wisdom and treasuring moments of earlier versions of
"Us" when we did not !Know everything in the world! or assume that we did, then that's me. Or who I hope to be.
It is fun being censored or labelled or "assumed about," however, by many who I do! deeply know are projecting insecurities and calling ti a fucking political movement. I wish you'd do better. Life is fucking hard enough. Make it harder for me I grow stronger so whatever. As long as I have those good memories to fuel my spirit, and that the animals I interact with have cordial signs which are such blessings I am infinitely thankful for.
In some ways I wish we could all as a whole in some way be more like them. Or those who built Gobekli Tepi or had left wonderful grand things around that we hardly enough peer at and wonder of their creation or glory.
Instead so many seem that too much excited to call me or associate me as this or that, because of Euro composition.
Such publicized flack or attack of such causes me to investigate my own heritage and I do not bend easily nor am I swayed so much as others. Because I realize neuro-suggestion, emotional sway and fear-based sensory influence.
So like all the "rebellion people" you say you are influenced by (as if) I would totally take their composition into being that outlier who still does or creates from what is truly in my heart, and "not giving a fuck." I believe in Love and yet not being a sucker, I believe in understanding yet not turning the other cheek to some point of identifying as a nemesis to those who understand me not at all.

Animals, then, and plant herbs and nature, and hopefully some Stars of the universe. I am just too tired of being censored or bypassed or assumed by so many "open minded" groups who celebrate moreso the depraved than the Spirited. Well I am going to call to that Spirited more deeply than ever before.

x

 Apparently
your
"revolution"
was against
me?

Well come at me
motherfuckers

Go back in time: don't date absolute psychos.
Get away from people who mass report your pages because they hold grudges.
Never sign up for the horror story of OKcupid.
Negate realizing how hateful and judgemental many of these collectives are.

They're fucking evil and full of so much sneaky bullshit.

I'm getting as far away from that as possible, these people who lump, group or associate you into their wholly cause of needing enemies to define themselves.
They preach the image of peace but are the most divisive and hateful monsters imaginable.
Hiding behind this trait of victimhood but never balancing the mind or body or soul,

via self-study, via body exercise, or via soulful understanding.

What hateful maniacs and political company weapons they are. But its okay, now,
for them to spill envy, emotional disgust, and all sorts of projection, because the venue
is acceptable for that to be done done. People get away with what they can get away with.

None of you care what I have to go through so I'm not trying to ask anybody too.
I'm who I am. But I know a lot more now after seeing how people or groups
or the emotionally insane can be and act when given that venue or ok to do so.
God help that anybody of the past gains influence of propaganda and can be
hateful and judgemental with some taste on their palette of "justice!" and being exactly,
in every way, what they preach against.  They're liars and people who don't do the 3:
Mind, Body, And Soul.  Propaganda pushes and people who need enemies and trouble
for self-definition.
I just want to write my characters, make plays and albums, short stories, to live my life.
But you mother fuckers can't have it just be at that. You have to censor and typify.
Lots of people as myself are turned against your movements, not that you care,
because you have the numbers of the horrible-many now, hot off the infinite press of
very boring, sterilized sorts who only rage, and consume, and wear costumes of hyperpolitical warriors.
You hate yourselves and can't cope with it, and that's it. You dream up being victims but get so much more handed to you than those you accuse of being oppressors, suprressors and the like.

Live my life a bit and you wouldn't make it or pass it. But you still commend to be, while having corporations backing you and billions in funding and aid feeling sorry for you, for pushing you to success,  meanwhile Im the type who pays for not fitting some bullshit demograph to push the "underprviledged" ahead.  Because I want to create via the content of creation,
To tune into inner spirit. To acheive getting better at things via trial and error, and experimentation of concept.
Instead you fill the world with "Rage Aggression Rebellion! cookie cutter bullshit. And it's boring, and childish and filled with naivety.

 No middleperson aka extortionist between Creator and You.

The history books will look back on these times as the dark ages.
As well as times of extreme neurotic and collectively coerced medical tyranny.
None too  many presently will stand tall to admit that.
You're really not supposed to admit that in any way.
you're not supposed to go against the iron guardian. The common strong many.
Only buying in.. you know, buying in to the divide and conquer revolutions,
that keep all infighting or not operating and performing and acting on the higher
and more vibrant levels of mental capacity.

If you can emotionally program and cause the sects of masses to be
responsive through shock and drama and reactionary distractions,
then simple and more effective, powerful answers of internal responsibility
and capability will never be found.

I live in the age of the clown but after the shtick is all but funny anymore you see
the nefarious disconnect from the holy or the sacral or the godly amongst the "hijacked" masses.

Because it takes a euphoria or deeper inspiration to move many to ask of themselves, internally,
to seek better, and more profound dreams to make and projects to take part in.
Instead, today, it in an onslaught of anti-nature.

The human race is obviously very sick and under a spell, monumental-like, presently. But who cares really?
because all are perfectly divided if as though at one another's necks over the highest tediums is a real way to award time and effort and having a beingness for living at all.

Why are there no requirements for leaders or influencers of those "in charge" to have a mental and physical and spiritual consistency of balance and pursuit?
Because the many were sold complacency and validation of the ego.
It's a troubled damn show and I hesitate to use words so growling but many of this populace, presently, are just plain ugly in the soul and bark too abruptly before ever practicing their bite.

Seem to hate life and vibrancy and love bowing down, and while bowing down and always tending to whichever next current upset, outlash or collective programming to wave high, all rebel by laying down in a street or bowing down low yet emotionally snapping. Acting like wild ghouls and imbalanced insane people. Destroying art and function. Being loud as all hell but having no style, or beauty, ingenuity, subject matter or flow. Flow of life. It is bile.
This is the age of bile and mass content production. Reality inversion and dolts who misuse symbols and march in tow to the hollywood emptyheaded. A show of smoke and mirrors and the dumbest most neurologically damaged who do not properly treat their vessel of a being as a temple or their minds as humble messengers toward strategic goals or heartfelt endeavors.

The clowns have become angry psychopaths and so in turn comes a civilization in denial that they are prime suckers. And estranged marks. Marching on the front of Fear Division and divorcing themselves from true and real subtle hints toward relevant manners involving self-correction, and steadfast required awareness.
For example your "Patriarchy Vs. Matriarchy" aspect of projected envy and mass internal imbalance is a shitshow whereupon you have living wrecks and nightmares of people thinking they have to topple some external and macrocosmic outlay of who they are as people because deep down they are all show, and exterior displays who had not yet gone the journey of serious and real answers. But are still yet all the loud without walking their steps through the cold or going through the severe tests of thinking and doing all which are needed and required to humble themselves.
To humble themselves they would quit preaching such materialism worship which ever clearly demonstrates all of their acts through cluttering and layering and building righteous filth over their loud and hungry shows of personality.
Let them get what they deserve or ask for, then, in the rules of teaching and the roles of harboring the most idiotic and pedantic civilization collapse as they are led into a self-dismantling world of attention seeking and assuming that high level corporations are leading them toward some sort of nirvana or bliss or spiritual pursuit rather than tricking them onto a ride of self-destruction and bodily failure.

Thanks God I have no influence upon the general public with my commentary or my very lenient remarks on simply getting people to question the charades and to step back somewhat and look at general mind control, and populace programming, etc. would have the very programmed themselves responding how they are... well... programmed.. and that is to attack and usurp anybody with any sleight of disagreement to their "holy" ways whatsoever.

Yet to me the importance of any thorough guide to life is what you can produce. And what you can build. And what you can show not by loudness and destruction and piggish extreme idiocy and sedentary allegiance.. it is about soulfulness and invigoration, invention of adapting nature into a new kind of lore or set principle to be more humble as one goes about questioning, and learning, and re-evaluating again and again until there is a calming down of rampant nerve tension distortion.
Yet that does not happen in this upset of modern emotional eruptions and the collective insane.
If you do not peer outward and admit this is a timeline of collective insanity then you must see nothing at all or be so well off completely that the possibility of complete seclusion allows for a lifestyle to not participate in this sort of global  soulless mess.

You can sell the people the same thing again and again and again, and they'll get nowhere at all really, but if you change the packaging, then, hell, you can charge them even more for it and they'll really love to buy it. Even base a lifestyle around it. They're still buying braining. They're still soul trapped, But you can train them, too, to be guardians of their own downfall and brain activity decrease. 
Isn't that funny? until you want the ride to stop?  

 What the  collective deem as truth
is en elective lie

 Thanks for all the 

 if you actually talk about what you  notice anymore, from a heartfelt truthful sincerity of unaltered observation, you get shadowbanned and attempt-shamed and all  that kind of stuff while the world rots and worsens and becomes dismantled to serve people who dance around words and topple over anything seeking ingenuity, talent and balanced structure.
Meanwhile you let imbalanced demon stooges go around making rule, law and backwards adaptions of some sort of intergalactic put-on, or in a better way to put it, a cosmic mockery and jest upon what it means to have energy incarnate in the body and a potential to make something useful, beautiful and immense with that experience. in short: you fucked up, and furthermore: stop it.

Verbena

 I just uploaded the worst album I ever created and you can buy and purchase and stream and support it on bandcamp so far and it will be on other streaming or pissing services soon via distrokid

bandcamp link
pre-upload link for spotify 

I'm eating some sort of tasty soup though hold on a second.
...
....
okay.
also I think I just uploaded it with more thorough and better quality WAV files onto the patreon website
which is this right here, a link  directly to that album upload post
yes, sure, that's it, that's the ticket! that's the key!

I made it so that since onlyfans whores can make trillions of dollars per half of the year for showing close ups of their eroded outward flapper meat,
that on my patreon crap,
"patrons" from 7 a month up to 5,596 a month all get access to the same creative content.
Since I upload perdy much all I create for free anyhow, It's a fermented ideal of a tipping jar or something like that. 

So here's the album art I crafted up for that Verbena, anyhow
Also so you know. Verbena is a flower that supposedly causes a vampire to just plain burn right up if they touch it.
Otherwise I was going to title the release Push Your Furr Back via a song on the release. 
I was reading something and the title Verbena came up and I liked it, then fought with it, then researched it a bit more, and realized I don't like vampires very much, and enjoy plantlife, so that worked into taking a chance on the name.

So here's the artwork

I made an image to support my patreon and sort of plastered it on a few pages of my main website so far - yes thank you I hope you like it

and here is the track listing, hopefully I can find a source to copy+paste it rather than typing it all out yet again, after all these years I finally don't feel like typing it all out again. Let me see...

1.	Untraceable Unobtainable 04:38
	2.	Royals 05:05
	3.	Push Your Furr Back 03:59
	4.	Honda Four Double 0 03:15
	5.	Save Us (Civilization Clockwork) 04:07
	6.	Over You Under You 03:58
	7.	Sweat Upon Me 02:38      gu32 985vy238503turu575    well great now it stuck me into a different format mode copying it from the bandcamp post. So I'm just going to click publish *flips you off*

 Happy East Star

 It was Occupy Wall Street. They saw people targeting actually those who were at fault, and they immediately diverted significant funds to ensuring that race conflicts, *%(%#@ shit and so on are pushed as the number 1 issue 24/7, so no one ever thinks about targeting the 1% again.

Don't worry you won't ever get media censored or banned and suppressed through all media outlets for figuring that out or even hinting at it, while the rest of the populace follows suit going mad through emotional manipulation and media programming.

 Protect each other
stop infighting
don't buy the bullshit.
There is a price on the end of your existence.
And 'enough is never enough'

 I leapt on a salmon and licked it's face.
It drove me to foreign regions
ones I
wouldn't seen to be
to be leaving

 If in the end, the truth wins,  well that would be a hell of a pay off wouldn't it

A place for my stuff

 NE Ways I am going to post these here to direct them through another link, so that's why they are posted  here.

I know why Luddites and Hermits exist verily, after ever purchasing a smart phone and also attempts in social media promotion for creativity, and having to, not wade, but be engulfed in the hysteria of it all. Calling it a demoralization ritual or dehumanization process is a little bit slight on the elbows.
Whatever mass projection via consciousness upheaval that all led to certainly added a lot of jarring into an already tumultuous perspective. 

It's no  fun when its me against the world, so to say. And I realize now, people more easily than not always talk or let it be known in what they don't like or will negate things more and more and more often than what they enjoy or hold close and dear or find validating and helpful.
The emotional addiction to upset and controversy and prized victimhood actually wrecked civilization. I find myself driving or walking around and sarcastically saying, for a building of health and humor, I say: you destroyed civilization, you soul hating twits! You got too greedy and don't know what to do with power, poise, or positions of influence. You're creating rubble." and that rubble will be soothened and told to be some modern gem. But its rubble.
So that's what social media can do.
And I wanted to say, you know,
hey, I'm sorry for ya's that the tavistock institution of human behaviors and influence had,
you know, mind washed you and coerced you. And sorry to myself that I ever mentioned that in the past because it fucked with my eligibility for public outreach and censored me like you wouldn't believe, to talk about CERN and shit, and energy alteration and consciousness change programs and political narrative embedding and forced behavior change on the populace and "shit like that." 

because beyond an idiom, people thinking or talking and discussing that kind of flavor creates a phenomenon of change and actual unifying.
And you're all supposed to be having gender wars and division wars and controversy bickering and fighting one another, which you are.

but I'm sorry for you and also sorry for me, then, that both are either falling for it and corrupted by it or corrupted competitively for ever beginning to speak about such things.

Anyway I just posted this post to attach the above images as I have to use them to promote some projects and all of that.

 >What is the leading cause of the rise in narcissism?

According to Jonathan Haidt, it was the "like" button on Facebook. Social media was less damaging before "likes" existed. Now people tailor themselves to the whims of the masses, and are rewarded in likes, thereby turning people into narcissists.

There are also the classic narcissists with shit parents who would have been that way even if social media did not exist.

Yeah I agree with that

LIKES and having anybody just anybody access the web on smart phones has fried peoples brains and given them enough of an ego addiction and consumptious sort of dried out soul that elevated this ghoulish, void-head kind of present entity.

 Lamest, most soulless people in the history of civilization: arrogant, self-worshiping without Spirit, exist today.
Very much it isn't an age of enlightenment. It's the dark ages. Clumsy minds. Easy-to-manipulate masses.
Age of Aquarius is a cloak of vanity and stupor. Legitimately soulblind.
Yes, the walking dead.

 Its one of those world frameworks where you have to fight with your spirit to keep surviving in showing your soul unto the many who seem soulless or careless about spirit. And those many seem to damn you, censor you or to misinterpret or attack you if your own personal freedom and love of life doesn't buy into all of their insane rules of imagery.

Anyone left alive true to soul, not playing to all of this emotional warfare and media's version of a reality which could be so much endlessly better and valuable in beauty and joy, to those ones not battered down or dead or dried out of hope yet, well I'm not sure what to tell you. Maybe you can find me and let me know.

 somebody next tell me how easy I've got it.
I'll eat your being like a spearmint snack

living's easy when it's easier

 living's easy when it's easier

Before Recording I Polius Trius When?? umm 2017, 2013, I think!?  Less oatmeal, less DINO Oatmeal now.  scheduled an upload for the I Polius Trius versions on the patreon thing  where I'm-- I think, right?-- uploading some older and unreleased stuff and processing the processes of new works being processed. 

Well I am throwing some rusty and bare bones things together for a release that MIGHT be called Push Your Furr Back  and I had subtracted this song from it and instead switched in one calls Royales. 
But its the first real warm and alright day here.  I am supposed to be in Michigan now with, sort of, a whole different life. But I'm here and itching to pick my car up from a shop tomorrow if it is fixed in some way. Then I can barger on out and camp and go about and figure out how to shower and wash wherever as I go along, instead.

I am seeking a brighter and new life completely and ultimately and yet may just have to do the above to harness and garner into that really.  

Clank Clank Clank, well that's the "way it be" sometimes, I do guess.   Also have tried to pick into some blood blister infection goin on in my finger. Makes playing guitar funzo! and even went to a hospital for that just makin sure the finger doesnt need to be amputated or "leveraged" or whatever so. 

Wait,  great, blogger is bugging out on me. That's what happens when Im not sprying negative rants out into it like typically.  Anyhow

Trying to work the -->REALM<-- section of my website and create a little cavern there. A snytax, no, syntax, eh? NYTAX-SIN, yeah that's life, right!?  Well yeah I am figuring to draw up some clickable forms for the REALM section there since social media did blip me into it being useless. Cool prejudices to the new kindsa power hungry these days. My character attributes are this or that so let's censor em unless I sneak into the eligible where today ya aint judged by the content of character or the trial of efforts. Clank-Clank-Clank,right? 

Just sewing hats and repairing thriftsome things in the meantime. 

I should be apt to mention on streaaming siites I transferred al ot of my stuff to there.
All the copyrightiii why am I in italics? All the copywrite agonies are past and passed through now finally. So on
 

Spotify

I-tunes

Bandcamp

Deezer

Amazon

Pandora

and here's the list of em really

yeah on those ones..
you can click over and what I was able to update so far has been added there.
There's still NO WORLD ORDER (only going to be redesigned and bettered from a double disc to 1 CD)
and RECKLESS RECLUSE, and TOP POP CLASSICS OF THE ASTRAL REALM,

and all those, will be added up. Anyhow I can make enough dough to cover the distrokid streaming fee and maybe even cover my website hosting fee cost if ya go there and stream it and all that.
Chameleon Shelter is still an interesting audio trip I think and its bollocks it hasnt been listened to more but do I look like a marketer to ya, nooo Im a creator really.
but there's my whole hustle for promoting that over there.
It took a while to okay it through.
Doing stickers with my CREATURES next on, I think, redbubble,
and yet I may have to order some goods myself as to check the quality there.
But doing photo prints and such Ill have access there. 
There's some marketing then aye!

 I'm sitting my guitar out and letting it tone and yellow and maybe age some in the new, improved daily available sun light. 
Should I write some excited favoring string of words sometime about budget/affordable guitars? I think so. I like them a lot and there are two I really feel live up to some massive inspirement to play tunes.

 

 anyway thats my BLOG update. God help you all incarnated into the present world modus

It's a nice day out

 It's a nice day out