Pink sky hole,photo roll and bargain souls

From 08/2008

This is a photo by Dylan Pakkala from a spot I had set up behind an old store where a couple of friends and I used to go and skateboard. They'd (The property owners/city) since pretty much demolished the ground there so it's hardly possible to go back there on a vandal board but there's a whole collection of photos and footage from back in the day.
This is another photo by Dylan.
And this too

Which reminds me of just how many cameras I've been breaking lately and how many people I owe replacements to.
Right now I can't sleep, and all I can think of is just skating down steep hills as fast as I can, I guess as some sort of amphetamine as to whisk away all those nerve jerking manifestations, irritations and insomnias. I was working on editing through stories last night and before I knew it had looked out the window and it was daylight already.



I haven't slept in like 2 1/2 days. That full length album is pretty much all finished, for both projects actually, but I don't even feel like releasing them, not yet. I already know they won't go anywhere, Because I won't play the 'industry' game. Either way I'm going to continue playing shows.. I have this urge to just up and hijack a spaceship. It's been driving me up a wall lately, the 'game,' The psychology of participation.

The industry

There's the music industry and then there's actually making music. Music is an art and art is about bending bars... Hopping out of boxes. Industry is about sales, accessories and patterns. Once you find a pattern that works, the industry doesn't want to take that chance: The leap into the unknown. It's all image, it's all niche.
I've always been staggered by people's views on art.. Usually, to me, whatever people presently hate, loathe and are disgusted by is what is later printed in books to be remembered as art.. And whatever at the given moment is being sold as 'artistic' is then forever forgotten like the gutless sales pitch that it really is. And when beginning to think too much about the industry, it's really just a big headache. It's all glitter, and no soul.. I swear some of 'em have no souls or hearts in their bodies, just little card slips with a diamond cross or daisy over the robotic scan code.
But that grief, that grief is just downright taking things too seriously.

Corporate Avenger - Taxes are Stealing

I decided to post this song up, as I just listened to it for the first time in about three years. There was a sort of spark to the song with how damn upfront the lyrics were. I've never really been into the style of such electro-rock/rap or what you may call it but the message and lyrics stuck out like a sore thumb with ragged uncut sharp nails.. You couldn't not notice it. There were some other real good songs from these guys as well with lines like "I don't fault the police (Because the people that run 'em have got 'em on a short leash.")
Anyhow, you don't hear too many musicians daring to step up and talk about the farce of the federal income system. Also, they speak heavily of the corruption over early native cultures in a really well done and summarized way. "Music for the fed up" and definitely worth checking out.. Just get over the fact that they look like Slipknot or whathaveyou. ;)
Also, another pretty upfront song:
"Christians murdered indians
Christians murdered indians

In the history of the human race
Of all the inspirations for the separation of
man from his true tribal culture
Of all the inspirations for acts of violence from one man onto another,
From one nation onto another, from one oppressor onto the oppressed.
There is no more guilty party and inspiration than those books known
As the holy bible the Koran and the bagavad gita
to spread separation of mankind.

The bible is bullshit, the bible is bullshit

The bible is bullshit, the Koran is a lie, the
bagavad gita did not fall from the sky
These are the books that were written by men.
They've caused wars, now follow if you can,

They took away our love and gave us fear
Tried to make us hate the one who put us here
Then they took our sacred songs and made them wrong
Then they took away our prayers and gave us theirs

The bible is bullshit, the Koran is a lie, the
bagavad gita did not fall from the sky
These are the books that were written by men.
They've caused wars, now follow if you can,

First they created sin so they could win
Then they built the cages they could put us in
Then they took away our tribes and gave us jail
Then they took away the earth and gave us hell

The bible is bullshit, the Koran is a lie, the
bagavad gita did not fall from the sky
These are the books that were written by men.
They've caused wars, now follow if you can,

It's time for you to love one another
It's time for you recognize your brother
It's time for us to stop killing our mother
It's time for us to care for each other
The bible is bullshit, the bible is bullshit
The bible is bullshit, the bible is bullshit

It's time for you to love one another
It's time for you recognize your brother
It's time for us to stop killing our mother
It's time for us to take care of each other

It's time for you to love one another
It's time for you recognize your brother
It's time for us to stop killing our mother
It's time for us to take care of each other

The bible is bullshit, the Koran is a lie, the
bagavad gita did not fall from the sky
These are the books that were written by men.
They've caused wars, now follow if you can,

They took away our love and gave us fear
Tried to make us hate the one who put us here
Then they took our sacred songs and made them wrong
Then they took away our prayers and gave us theirs

The bible is bullshit, the Koran is a lie, the
bagavad gita did not fall from the sky
These are the books that were written by men.
They've caused wars, now follow if you can,

First they created sin so they could win
Then they built the cages they could put us in
Then they took away our tribes and gave us jail
Then they took away the earth and gave us hell

The bible is bullshit, the Koran is a lie, the
bagavad gita did not fall from the sky
These are the books that were written by men.
They've caused wars, now follow if you can,

It's time for you to love one another
It's time for you recognize your brother
It's time for us to stop killing our mother
It's time for us to care for eachother

The bible is bullshit, the bible is bullshit
The bible is bullshit, the bible is bullshit
The bible is bullshit, the bible is bullshit
The bible is bullshit, the bible is bullshit"


You know what, I'll even post the message of a third song of theirs called
"Voting Doesn't Work"

"Voting doesn't work 1-2-3
It's time you know your enemy
I won't pledge allegiance to hypocrisy
Your democracy, is not for me
So, when we try to change this place
Courtroom pulls an about face
Fantasies of the master race
Our elections they erase
See once upon a time we were all free
When we lived in tribal societies
Peace and harmony
And everything for the good of family
Yeah, cancer people can smoke weed
People voted to be free
But the fascist rule decree
Pigs arresting you and me
Voting doesn't work
Why?
When they don't like what we say then they stop it in the courts.
President this, president that
Represent the ruling class
One says this, one says that
Sounds the same what choice is that
See voting doesn't work 1-2-3
Coming from the NATION OF THE CHEROKEE
How can you choose when you don't have a choice?
How can you choose when you don't have a voice?
Yeah, interest games, their interest rates
Secret power fueled by hate
Fear for cash, cash for fear
Greenspan is the ruler here
Yeah, a pig is a pig
And they took it away
And I don't give a fuck about the things they say
It don't mean shit to me
Voting doesn't work, it's easy to see, that
Voting doesn't work
Why?
When they don't like what we say then they stop it in the courts
Voting doesn't work, I have seen
Along with piles of broken treaties
Your reality produces poverty, spiritually
In a nation of greed.
Well who is working, who is not
Think votes count, well I think not
Doesn't matter what we say
Things will always go their way
Power to the people is just a fantasy
And they sell it to us as an American dream
Well, your vote counts 1-2-3
Living in democracy
Everybody here is free
Cuz it's built for you and it's built for me.
Voting doesn't work
Why?
When they don't like what we say then they stop it in the courts"

I find the simplicity and straight forwardness of the message beautiful and in dire need to be heard. Of course, the spectrum goes much deeper, but damn these songs a kind of pamphlet reduced version that strike away the bullshit written in american history books that are fed and programmed daily into the nations' mind. If only the true simplicity of the illusion and history of people were known...

The Swine Flu Shuffle

I was going to immediately type up an updated version of an old paper but realize I had lost all of the photos and such for it so will have to start it from scratch. So, in meanwhile I will post the lyrics to a song I have written called 'The Swine Flu Shuffle."
With Kozmikon's thought provoking updates on the subject I remember a little dry humored song I sketched up on the matter right when the scare was coming out.

Note that the rhythm of the chorus is to take after "Bad Case Of Loving You" by Robert Palmer.

"Dr,Dr, Tell me what to do
I've got a bad case of that damn swine flu.
I don't wanna vomit, I don't wanna struggle
I just need to get up and do the Swine Flu Shuffle.

Kick to the left, Jive to the side
Get a shot of mercury just to stay alive
Hop on one foot, Wear this white mask
Case number 5,001 if they ask.

Dr,Dr I've got this slight cough
It's like this plague that I just can't get off.
I was eating Anthrax, I had mad cow disease
I even remember that drastic bird flu sneeze.
But this one's so bad, I just don't know what to do
"Chances are, Son, You've got the swine flu."

There's one way,baby, that I can shake it off
The swine flu baby, Shake it off (Shake it off!)
Take this shot, He has a medical coat
Jam these orange pills right down your throat.
The swine flu shuffle, Contagious and sly
Will this measly cough make me d,d,d,d,Die!?

Dr,Dr Tell me what to do
I've got a bad case of that damn swine flu
I don't wanna vomit, I don't wanna struggle
Just gotta get up and... Swine Flu Shuffle

[The bridge of the song would go right here:]
To the left baby, Shake it off shake it off
To the right baby, shake it off shake it off
Awwe hell, get it off me, get it off me
The deadly swine flu- just stick me with a shot.
(Add weak cough sound behind select verses)"

Okay,so maybe it won't be that big of a hit if I ever get around to recording it.. 'Can't imagine
and I might be dragged to the old mill house and hung for bringing up humor among something so feared.. But with it breaking out in the news of deaths after vaccination right down to the next town from me, It's starting to get pretty alarming as ideals of 'medical guinea pigging' going this far. Just look up all of the ingredients within this damned 'cure.'
"We're all healthy, says the FDA"

We Live In A World [Where time is made up]

Be it night or day, the craftsman is made of clay
Shaping his armies with less vision
So they can live by his rules of play
Yet he himself is feeble
In his own selfish righteous way
Whom sends out hired killers, he still is made of clay.

"I ain't gonna shed my skin for you."

So lately I've been pondering on all of the exits away from the madness of the material world, and while most people want to fix everything on the outside, going back to self is the very last thing one would want to confront, because there is nothing more scary nor frightening than the self... Than to face your own shadows.. Which is why so many damn people can be uptight or voiding about analyzing or changing one's self to fix a problem. We all just want to blame the world around us. It's hard though, it seems, to escape the traps.. And the digger you deep and the more you learn about how the human body, neurons, signals and world operates. The deeper and deeper the trap seems to get. With the farther back you travel upon history, culture and wisdom the more ass-backwards of a direction things have seemed to of delved as to where we are right now.

The very idea that many can't even announce their own state capitol or admit to the power of thought suggestion begins to show a downward slope of knowledge and respect of self. If one had respect of self, they would see just what a sham the formal education system is, alongside the indoctrination through media culture. Even the very process of me bringing this up pigeonholes me as some whacko but after a while that accusation starts to sort of wear off.. You can go around trying to tell the world your ideas or mindset, hoping that it's right... When you yourself could possibly even be wrong.. Yet still, it's the idea that your "whackjob" ideas can't even be taken as a slight possibility, when they are able to offer more merit than the socially engineered opinion, that's when the concern really begins to make faces fluster. Take it as this: To be burnt alive suggesting the world is oblate.. Is it any different now? Are they witches or communists or terrorists? It's all fear, fear of someone else or fear of self, it is all the same.

The suppression of knowledge begins to come into play for many of the reasons of dire need in the control of information. If any of these prior topics even seem a bit startling or "out there" then they'll probably lock me up for eternity from some of the experiences that I have went through or viewpoints I've looked into the past week to month. Which started snowballing from the past few years or so. Yet, the more I look at how I am feeling about things lately, the more it fits right in like a puzzle piece to some of the knowledge practiced in the culture I am obsessed with learning of which is Egypt, and early Sumeria. The practices of symbol, magic, mystery school, soul, dimension and so forth were common knowledge and interest but when it is even brought up or mentioned in present we have been trained to shun anybody like idea off and outward.. "You're a fucking nutter.. Why can't you just stick to talking about beer and football.. or celebrity death?" Because these are the mechanisms to keep us dumb as dribble coming out the wrong end..

But still, To those out there interested in the same forms of research, do you not have to 'act' to make it through this life? To keep your head down because once you try and cross that line of 'dignity' and basic knowledge, you're pretty much castrated.. So one has to go along and pretend the way around in this material world. I guarantee, without even getting into any of the subjects as of yet, that there would be many turning their heads towards me to even hear this, part of those afraid of themselves, a fear to realize the possibilities. I keep on saying that we are truly afraid of the power of self because it is the idea that we can all change this world we mourn, bitch and hate that is all based on time and schedule.. We can change it if we want to, but we keep on participating, but I'm fucked up for talking about that. But you know, at the end, Things are dusted off for what they truly are. It's a very strange time, and there were some personal experiences that really, really pushed my perception of things on outwards regarding the concept of time.

"All matter is merely energy condensed to a slow vibration, that we are all one consciousness experiencing itself subjectively, there is no such thing as death, life is only a dream, and we are the imagination of ourselves." of course,A quote by Bill Hicks. I've always thought about and analyzed this perception before, in which many, many others such shamans, spiritualists and many many people who, just because they hadn't watched all the ball games of their time, shouldn't be classified as 'nutters' but as those to maybe learn something from. I would always wonder about the merit of the quote, because it felt pretty on target, but I never, ever thought I would actually experience that state of being... Until, well, it actually occurred.

That's all for now (folks.) I know visiting this blog may be unbalancing at sometimes, but if you do, it's at your own risk.. Because eventually I'm going to get into some pretty far out stuff (Not even as far out as some of the things I'm still dwelling upon but still pretty out there compared to programmed perception. It also must be weird having one entry speak of a couple of new songs I'd been working on (Yeah,too many more songs to come!) and then me talking about consciousness and illusion, but take it all in balance.. I don't want to wear a mask for anybody, So take it as it comes. I enjoy what I do, and know it will be just as much effort to get any ideas or creations out saying the things that will come up, but damnit, some things just need to be said and thought about.. No more masks, It can't be October 31st all year around.

Ketchup and Mustard philosophy

"I need to wait for the world to catch up So I can Relish actual serenity"
.."Or maybe you need to quit thinking about condiments and find your own serenity out-
side all those stuck with forks in their heads."

Condiments:From french word Condire, or to preserve.. Quit thinking about preserving what's already built, there's no fixing it~ Go out unto your own, It tastes much better.
(They never let me write the damn fortune cookies.)

Friday Coyote

Apparently it is Friday(Supposedly named after Anglo-Saxon Frigedaeg, From Goddess Fria.) Saturday is of course Saturn's day and there is not much to say that isn't already being worked on at the moment through jumbled short stories and projects driving me in sane/keeping me in 'sanity'.
The air is growing colder each night here in the Northeast of the States, so thick layers and heavy beards are being stockpiled and prepared by many. Even all the Ms. around here are in attempt to grow a moustache curl. While it freezes here, the West Coast catches on fire as per usual schedule this time of year.

Every night I go outside I hear the howls of coyotes under the shimmer of light from the bright moon through the clouds. They grow closer and closer in sound every night yet strangely enough I do not feel threatened or at any discomfort by their presence but moreso curious of their travels.. of their survival. Maybe I'm just magnetised to all the 'lone wolf' heresy of the species (Coyote/wolves.)
"People always make the wolf more formidable than he is" It is said, which I'd have to agree with. Humans seem more threatening to me oftentimes. Carnivorous,A vicious carnival.
That's about all I've got right now.. I wanna be,well..
Often it's better to be cold than thrust in the same situation constantly.