Sunday, December 20, 2009

The Holiday Sickness Bites My Ass


This photo was nestled between two hundred notepads and three million empty frames. It reminded me of christmass, 'Really jolted me further into the holiday 'mood.'

I knew it'd happen... I knew the 'christmas spirit' would crawl on through me and sporadically make me sick. After waking up from an hour nap (Way more sleep than usual) I could feel my nose dripping off my face and my eyes felt misplaced. I was fine beforehand.. After that nap now my lungs feel rung out, my throat drought and my temperament depleted. I suppose all of that gunk I'm trying to cough and hack up out of my system from my nasal and lower throat area is the christmas spirit that invaded me.. I want it to go away. It hasn't hit me that hard other than physically, though.. I feel no spur of the moment need to go out and needlessly buy useless wingdings or to choir sing melodies of mistranslated celebration and celebrated credit card purchases.

Monday, December 14, 2009

So Be It, SoBek and D.N.A.

"So be yourself, but only as we say Follow your own path, only as the breeze will make you...."

"During the 1950s, researchers discovered that the chemical composition of most hallucinogens closely resembles that of serotonin, a hormone produced by the human brain and used as a chemical messenger between brain cells. They hypothesized that hallucinogens act on consciousness by fitting into the same cerebral receptors as serotonin, "like similar keys fitting the same lock.1"


Some weeks ago I had finished a book I picked up after wandering on in to the warehouse book sale previously mentioned where upon the end day a bag of books was around 75 Cents to a dollar. Luckily many very interesting ones were left and despite missing seemingly many,many good ones, the books I stumbled upon led me into some different alleys to part me from accepted 'normals' and to even confirm some of my previous interpretations.

NORMAL??
"Given The conditions of contemporary civilization, how can one claim that the 'normal' man is sane?"
"The condition of alienation, of being asleep, of being unconscious, of being out of one's own mind, is the condition of the normal man. Society highly values it's normal man. It educates children to lose themselves and to become absurd, and thus to be normal...
We are not able to even think adequately about the behaviour that is at the annihilating edge. But what we think is less than what we know;What we know is less than what we love; What we love is so much less than what there is. And to that precise extent we are so much less than what we are."
-R.D. Laing, The Politics Of Experience


This book (The Cosmic Serpent) really grabbed a hold of me because it was taking some of the most sincere subjects to me that I had stood back and looked at in many different ways, or, through many 'reality tunnels,' as you might say.
Basically, this read was an investigation done by a researcher dissatisfied with the given shut and close case of the connection between the sacred knowledge of indigenous tribes and it's connection to DNA with the closed eyes current anthropology and science has in it's terms of 'primitive information.'

The cover of the book said enough to my subconscious as it glared to me from the shelf, but it amazed me even more when the page that had been bookmarked with red ribbon by the previous owner opened to this:
The first page that jumped onto my third-eyeball when the book was opened

So I had been on a tirade of research and insight amongst the subjects of advertising, Egypt and symbols. Mostly, It seemed to come to me and I wouldn't dare tell somebody else to believe information (Any information) on it just by word, but to research it themselves and take a vacation from all the pre-fed explanations of the world that have led us all into a time loop of non-answers and very expensive theories always done by people who ARE NOT YOU. What is so attractive about the 'unknown?' It is that there is always more to learn, and that 'science is always playing catchup' or will more appropriately, will lose money and credibility for admitting past mistakes and current discovery.. or that the unknown does not have to be unknown?
There is HiStory, and there is MyStery.
His Story is what we've been fed, it is always His meaning, his interpretation but what about MY story, what about your story? Mysteries are always left unanswered and it's about time that the weird or the unfunded start to gain their ground.

Is it safe to say that truth is perception and intuition is a more earnest way to lead path and puzzle pieces together rather than ego? In which ego is moreso proving everything to wrap around your own belief structure rather than opening the mind to the possibilities which in end actually will make more sense than the funded and dull explanations we all wrap logic around to stand by.

"In 1979, It was discovered that the human brain seems to secrete dimethyltryptamine---Which is also one of the active ingredients of ayahuasca. This substance produces true hallucinations, in which the vidions replace normal reality convincingly..." "Unfortunately, scientific research on dimethyltryptamine is rare. To this day, the clinical studies on it's effects on "normal" human beings can be counted on the fingers of one hand.1" Or, more appropriately, to this day, the funding of My story has been kept a mystery, because it seems the research when done just may be key-like enough to open the doors of perception, and the tainting of consciousness itself is a billion dollar industry, perhaps even the indoctrination of the monetary system itself.

Some of the more interesting quotes I will list but I pretty much had underlined and 'dogeared' the book in it's entirety due to it's synchs and interesting comments on what some of the ancient and current cultures speak of regarding symbols, reality structure and dna.

The comparison from DNA to ancient serpent symbolism really tugged at my mind because adding that in with the effects of sacred symbols on human beings reminded me of months ago when in my hand I held a bottle of that 'Sobe Life Water' and doing an article on Egypt at the time I immediately thought Sobec/k! and as you'd have it, the curled logo was swirled up into a 'c.'

'Coincidence, you nutjob!' I'm ready to accept as a reply, but the identical DNA graphics not only imprinted in the silhouette but swirled around the body in the 'eternal form' of DNA, (or the ladder to the heavens) made me chuckle only a little.
Dna,anyone?


Sobek (Sebek, Sebek-Ra, Sobeq, Suchos, Sobki, and Soknopais)

Sobe /Sobec
To the ordinary, without foreknowledge of psychology and how the mind perceives matter, sure it all merely fits the paranoid ramblings of an overtly suspicious group of people who make up a small (yet growing) percentage of consciousness, But that is fine. If you look through to the way the mind actually interprets subliminals and how genetic DNA and ancient worship is done then the only real difference between 'then and now' is that then, people were aware of it and now people are simply too distracted or high in their ego to be either interested, bothered by it, open minded, are engineered or don't have enough free time to ponder such possibilities.

This was a while after being introduced to the presentation on subversive marketing by Michael Tsarion (Highly recommended to those who haven't already seen it) during a time where 'intrigued' was a very understated definition (endlessly fascinated is more like it) of how I felt when being introduced with the similarities if not identical patterns of previous rituals and symbols in comparison to the present, in which people have lost identification and knowledge of the power of an image and what a ritual may be considered.

To the paragraph mentioning the distracted, there are almost two consciousnesses occurring at the same time in this reality spectrum and in my view it is the ego versus the open. And the term usually used to fight open-mindedness is that "If you're too open minded, your brain might fall out" which is pretty funny, I guess, but irrational in the fact that you can be open minded without being completely gullible and must still use common logic, Though, logic, in this day is sadly hard to come by. Written off as 'coincidence,' almost EVERY culture has had symbolism and god/goddesses worship through spiritual and inner enlightenment/knowledge. By 'inner,' I mean inside of the body, inside of the mind. We could discuss the Pineal Gland/Pine cone worship, or the highly discussed and apparent mushroom worship, DNA, and phallic is obviously dire on the symbol use as well (Yeah, look at the temples, obelisks,etc.)

Though the answers are always given, and thanks to many researchers who go out on the limb of ridicule and have the curiosity and bravery to mention these things, it definitely is apparent today.
Just take a look around at any hospital logo.


(Okay, some of the logos may look like this as well, but pay no attention to sun worship.. We wouldn't still take part in that today,right?)


The obvious is in the open, and with any research done it comes to notice that to cure the body that the DNA must be the main component of healing, which might be why it is used upon the symbols wherein the profession is healing.

Double-Helix



The serpent symbolism represents the double-helix of DNA. It is used blatantly throughout civilizations and, with any basic glance of the similarities, the count of this use past and present seems endless. The serpents were seen as the creator gods. Creator? Endless? DNA is both endless and the creator of every living thing. All cells in the world contain DNA.

"The average human being is made up of 100 thousand billion cells, estimated. This means that there are approximately 125 billion miles of DNA in a human body -- corresponding to 70 round-trips between Saturn and the Sun. ... Your personal DNA is long enough to wrap around the Earth 5 million times."1
Is this the connection to the stars that is always mentioned in religion, philosophy and spirituality?


"Anthropologists invented the word 'Shamanism' to classify the least comprehensible practices of the 'primitive' peoples." 1
The Tungas language for this is Saman and the first Russians who observed the activities of shaman described them as 'mentally ill.' This is how far the indoctrination of belief systems pushes the ego of ideology. If you do not understand it or it is not within your comfort zone it is 'mad.' Need I bring up the 'flat Earth' days again?

In the book there is a conversation the author had with Carlos Perez Shuma, The Amazonian Ashaninca where the shaman stated
"I know that any living soul, or any dead one, is like those radio waves flying around in the air"
"where?"

"In the air. That means that you do not see them, but they are there, like radio waves. Once you turn on the radio, you can pick them up...."

These were the types of things inventive revolutionary Nikola Tesla had picked up and knew about, and where the studies of Quantum Technology and Dark Matter theories delve into, yet because before 'advanced technology' was able to catch up to it, past civilizations were degraded and shunned in retrospect.

The journey seems to never end but the connections seem to grow bolder and more clearly as the moments grow. Normal explanations will one day seem laughable and the 'keys of Thoth' and ancient understanding may one day grow to the present but only if the old ways of ego and ridicule of possibility diminish first.

I'll leave off with two more quotes from this book that I recommend people get a copy of and ask questions about.

Here is a very heavy key factor in our little dimension that, strangely enough, many people do not know of. "We do not know how our visual system works. As you read these words, you do not really see the ink, the paper, your hands, and the surroundings, but an internal and three-dimensional image that reproduces them almost exactly and that is constructed by your brain. The photons reflected by this page strike the retinas of your eyes which transform them into electrochemical information; the optic nerves relay this information to the visual cortex at the back of the head, where a cascade-like network of nerve cell separates the input into categories (form, color,movement,depth,etc.) How the brain goes about reuniting these sets of categorized information into a coherent image is still a mystery. That also means that the neurological basis of consciousness is unknown.1"

"...I had learned that the human eye is more sophisticated than any camera of similar size. The cells on the outer layer of the retina can absorb a single particle of light, or photon, and amplify its energy at least a million times, before transferring it in the form of a nervous signal to the back of the brain. This IRIS, which functions as the eye's diaphragm, is automatically controlled. The cornea has just the right curvature. The lens is focused by miniature muscles, which are also controlled automatically by feedback. The final result of this visual system, still imperfectly understood in its entirety, is a clear, colored and three-dimensional image inside the brain that we perceive as external. We never see reality, but only an internal representation of it that our brain constructs for us continuously.1"

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1. From the book 'The Cosmic Serpent DNA and the Origins of Knowledge by Jeremy Narby, respectively.

This is the first article I have done in a while and is very condensed and in hopes to provide people to further investigation upon, because with the likes of such topics it must be experienced and not told, but as interesting as it is, it is very hard not to write about it. Future topics might include the pineal gland symbolism, while others are already covered very well by certain researchers/"bloggers" going through several different layers and levels of interpretation.
My computer crashed recently and the "Egypt" article is constantly being updated and expanded on but I hope to release it shortly, If I can find the hefty sized folder of images which seem to be erased or lost at the moment. There was also a slide show but that looks like it's gone forever so I shall re-type the whole thing from scratch. Note that this blog is a constant cluster and not meant for just one subject. Complete randomness will be posted most of the time. Also note that Normal is Insane!
I'll be releasing something special soon for those who can handle my audio, but now it looks like I'll be repairing a vehicle and working on my 'unfree' time. Yeah, that's what the last post was about.. Watch out for black ice.. Fuck, 'still surprised I'm in one peace . Call it luck?

Sunday, December 13, 2009

The future may just never get here

It's strange, knowing you should be dead or at least crippled from an intense and jolting event, yet can just somehow walk onward with that feeling of hysterical shock and the moment playing repeatedly.
Live,live,live because you can; Tomorrow's forever and if you're counting on the future to be your 'moment,' The future may just never get there.

12/13/2009

That holiday sickness is getting all over every doorknob,
trash container and even on the bottom of my shoe.

Thursday, December 10, 2009

'Streamers'

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Tuesday, October 20, 2009

My Psyche Had An Itch


'My Psyche Had An Itch.mp3 6.11 MB

This is a song off of the currently unreleased full-length of Reckless Reclusion.
Improvised and recorded as a first take and only-take on August 14th 2008 outside on the front porch.. There were two other songs from this night of 'improvised weirdness'.. "Demon Problems" and "Bite My Tongue" which will probably someday be released with a tractor trailer truck full of b-sides but are otherwise just muck.
Words off the tip of the tongue breathe easier for me and I guess it's like the release of a subconscious buildup of the mental mutiny.


The more I think about 'releasing' music the more stressed and annoyed I get.. I hardly ever want to sell it, I just want to make it, and keep making more and hope others will experience the noise... I can't market... and I don't want to market. With that being said, I will shortly probably just release the entire album for free like many of the past ones have already been done. I can't buy my way into the 'industry' and don't want to become one of those zany air-headed hucksters that can 'make it' in or are apart of the industry! I guess if people dig it and want to support it they can do so, otherwise, I'll just keep talking into caves.
Plus, there are so many hours of music sitting on my harddrive awaiting direction.
This Reckless Reclusion is some sort of bothered back-mucus buildup finally spit out through short stories and I suppose somehow listening to a lot of Billy Bragg, Mojo and Skid Roper, and Joe Talcum and early folk songs had a spice of influence.
And I just realized something pretty funny in that I had a song recorded called "Hot Air Balloon Hijack" and didn't even think to compare it to that 'balloon boy' bullshit, Though it's a little different in scenario because it's about hijacking a hot air balloon and taking it to the moon.

I'll add more tunes later, possibly one by one, and then post the entire album with download links soon... While I still work on Death:The Infomercial and get mentally raped at 'business employment' with nightmares of upc codes strangling me and zombified customers boring me to death.

The witch ritualistically killed the Arab who was busy blowing himself up while the stock broker caused the homeless to starve and die on the street but
only after he became desperate and insane enough to mug the priest who went out and jailed the witch.. And somewhere along the way god was sitting there
watching it all but he was everywhere at once, infront of a TV screen being convinced that god was somebody else. (From some satirical tangent written with invisible ink)

Monday, October 19, 2009

I should probably get sleep someday

Today I found myself scuffing my feet along a warehouse book sale floor. $1.50 a book, or something of the like. Much like any day, it was topsy and turvy. Although later in the day I was insulted by a homeless person for no reason, I had come across a book called


which was pretty interesting as it stood off the shelve staring at me in an eye-catching manner... Also, a book simply titled '666' in bold red colors fell onto the floor as I passed through the busy shelving isles but for some reason that did not really surprise me or make me nudge at all.
Some other books that I filled up the plastic bag with were
'The Odyssey' of course, because it's been a damn long time since I've read that and that was way before I had anything to relate the meanings to.
'Nikola Tesla Returns' was another one, and even though I have no expectations for the book it should be interesting nonetheless.I know that there are many written about him that only uncover merely 20% of what he accomplished, as I suppose it's 'riskay' to write about many of his concepts since we wouldn't be slaving away drowsily if we could tap into his knowledge.

'The Roots of Coincidence' and 'I Ching-The Book Of Changes' were a couple more that I gnabbed off the shelves... And 'Learn Italian!' Why stick to one language?? Chances are, I will sloppily and slowly learn the language and then end up somewhere like Asia and wonder why I picked the wrong damn book.

Here are some 'rejected photos' from 05/2009 while I find myself reaching into endless empty bags grabbing for sleep..

'Baby, I don't wanna want a baby'

I hated this photo because it belongs in a dainty calendar or maybe as a Salt
Lake City postcard. It's calming, but, death to it.


Purple was the color of the day.


Around 2:30 in the morning

This was as close to a telescope that my camera would get.
And as it was near it's last few breaths of life, the focus was shoddy and unstable, though
sometimes I enjoyed the camera's unbalanced, blurry as hell effects before it finally
croaked on me.

Sunday, October 18, 2009

Planets Must have been switched (Because there's surely no air here)

You cannot die if you're already dead...
And sometimes I wonder if planets have been switched... Or which one have I maybe ended up on. Surely it can't be real. People talk about ascension.. There is the material realm, where we stand afoot now, Like some jelloish wave of molasses with distractions and I wonder if the only next step forward is by shedding the skin, so to say:To leave the body.
There is a world of symbols fully misunderstood and a language of living through the Shamans knowledge that has been so bleached out of the conscious that it is ridiculed or scorned even being mentioned yet surely the holy "Thou Shall Not Make A Graven Image" came even before "Thou Shall Not Murder," showing how important the subconscious mind proves to be. The fact that many merely will not take in the possibility of the subconscious level of reality being something critical is in itself a "Poison" sign.

So I ask, Can you not die if you are already dead? Or maybe more suitably: Who is left alive? Maybe this is purgatory for some.. I see many lost souls and they grab for distractions. They pretend this is bliss but are not the cities and towns only a place for consumption and advertising space? And the last fields, They must be bought up or paved before freedom can surely be (evicted) spread. Rest assured, though, this is NOT the end of the world.. As I will get to soon. Yes, This is NOT the end of the world (Unless we want it to be. Unless we choose to believe what we're allowed to create.)

Sometimes the crazier things make sense in the world... It's always the repeated things that make cents, though.
My computer was quite fried and frizzled for a while and I had started too many writings and have a bit of articles started but often wonder whether to finish them and how many are already covered. Though, while delving in and out of the 'real' world my personal perspectives and takes on the in'sanity' make it often difficult to not bring up, no matter how many raised eyebrows may scold me for raising my head in this comical trench. Is it often worth sharing the perspective and advice to those with a verbal and communal bullet aimed towards you?

"....we use that word 'crazy' to avoid thinking about things that are too painful for us. "
-Carl Sagan

Thursday, October 15, 2009

Songs of Reckless Reclusion



Darlin' Miss Invisible (2:51)
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Train Tracks Song (4:48)
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Recently I finished an EP titled 'Reckless Reclusion' which will also come out with 18 or so tracks as a full length. The whole EP is up for download at this page and hard copies are available as well for four talisman. Umm, It's a polar opposite from the Death The Infomercial project, Since these songs are more of a folk, laidback and an improvised singer/songwriter kindof thing. The full length will be a balance of comedy/drama and mostly improvised material.. I'm pretty much working on this at the exact same time as Death:The Infomercial so it's getting kind of hard to keep a pace of being able to come back up for air on occasion.