You can have it, you ran it into the ground any way

It's also called going to places that are more beautiful, and where there are nicer people who nurture something more than their state-identity ego. Find better opportunities elsewhere where your soul doesnt feel like it has to fight or spar with people that really need to dig into the outlandishly trendy or who speak spirituality this or holistic kindness that but when talk comes to action, you can see they are rabid about in-groups and limited thinking, and furiously greedy to keep anything different from what they already know from actually teaching them. Because they :know it all and cannot know a thing more,: and then you humble hopes of people by finding places that arent so berating and rampant on screaming all of the time or having impossible causes flippantly rotating as soon as they can tune into what new belief system they are ordered to march unto via the belltoll of the hivemind.        

   It's cool and it's find, just my way is not your way and "your way sure as hell is not my way" so as to quote a person called T.D. Lingo.  In all things I just want to push my creative and music and artful boundaries, but when  i see what people have to do to be in "cliques" especially around here, some real truth of the soul that walks the talk is what it is all about.   

There are so many other places and opportunities. And as open minded as this region is, people sure are flakey, and smarmy and really judgy if they cant pin your mannerisms down and if you're actually nice or heartfelt to them it probably reminds them of something they abandoned long ago like some family member trying to bond with them before they were reprogrammed,  or an act of kindness that they cant twist into turning into either an ally or a foe of their constantly miraged "revolution."      

    That's future reference for a one day possibility when people stop trying to eat eachother alive or whatever. A day I'm not sure I'll see, but something to powerfully step away from with some heart left alive within me.